Mercy Ships...Here I come

You know I always find it hard to write these things.  I always know how I want to start the blog...but from then on I'm a blank slate...How do I keep it going.  But I guess we will try and see what happens.  Soooo to begin...

2 weeks!  YIKES!!!  In 2 weeks and I am heading back to Senegal to be with Mercy Ships.  Hard to believe that it's almost time to go back.  I've missed the ship and the people.  It will be great to see some old friends and meet some new ones.  I've missed my peeps from there.  But at the same time...I'm nervous.   It's not my first time, it's not even the first time after daddy's passing, it's my third time heading over there, so why am I nervous?  I believe it has something to do with the fact that it's going to be for 3 and 1/2 months.  It's not a for few weeks but it's for longer.  It's long enough that I can actually get homesick, miss my family and munchkins, miss the peeks of being home, miss a shower longer than 2 minutes.  Plus I now have responsibilities here at home.  It's hard knowing that if something happens at home it's my home, not daddy's.  I know though...that this is what I am supposed to be doing now...I need to leave the worries up to God. 

As much as I have missed the ships, it has been good to be home for 2 months. There have been tough times and good times.  Some times that I've wondered if I was going to make it through or not.  But God has been good, giving strength when I needed it, being a shoulder to cry on why I needed one, being there for comfort when I needed it, and for being there when I've been trying to do it on my own.  It has been good to be with family though.  Over the holidays and keep some traditions alive.  Not going to lie...it's been hard at times too.  But it's part of learning how to be single in a new way.  

That being said...I am excited about heading back!  A little scared and happy all at the same time.  And to the part I am always not very good at.  I am about $1,500 short of being fully funded.  I've wrestled with even asking.  Do I even ask?  So I leave it up to you.  If you feel lead to donate...I thank you from the bottom of my heart.  

Blessings,

Suzanne